Out with the Old

Over the last few weeks, I have spent a lot of time in my closet.  It's not a fun thing for me.  But, it's necessary.  My personal downsizing has created a need to weed.  Out with the old!  Time to focus on where I am now and what I no longer need. 

For me, the task was daunting because I really had to try on a lot of the clothes.  My body shifts so much right now, I have no idea what fits on  regular basis.  Something can be too tight on Monday and by Friday it fits decently.  Or, pants can fit a little loose on one day and by the next week they are too big and need to be weeded.

One might think that this would be easily done on an ongoing basis... which is what I'm doing now.  But, at first, I think there was that fear that my weight could go back up.  No one who loses weight never wants to go back to being heavy.  But, those of us who have spent our lives in search for semi-decent plus size clothing know it is not easy to come by.  So, to let go of those commodities (even if I wasnt in love with any of them) which took years to accummulate is very hard to do. 

 

But, I took the stance that I would never need them again.  I just had to think that way.  Because that is how it has to be.  So, I cleaned out.  I went through everything.  I packed up bags and bags of clothes and starting keeping them together in another room.  I would add clothes to them over a few weeks of doing this and then left the bags there for a while.  I never (not one time) went back to the bags.  I never looked in them.  Never thought about what was in them and no longer in my closet.  Nothing needed to stay.  And, when I came to that feeling of acceptance, then were placed in my car and taken away.  And, I haven't thought about them since.