All I See is Fat

Saturday night was my comeback for the Dance gig.  And while my routine was short (seriously, if you sneezed you would miss me), I was very nervous.  I actually felt more nervous this year than last.  That's partially because my new dance partner and I barely rehearsed.  We only had a couple of dedicated times to practice and we weren't really ever in sync.  So, I was never comfortable with it.

Secondly, I'm so much smaller.  And, people are looking.  Plus, I bought a special dress and I really wanted to look thin for the performance. 

I did get lots of great compliments on my dress and how I looked and I did feel great.  But, now the pictures are in and all I see is fat.  I do see I'm smaller, but I really feel like I look fat. 

A woman that works out with me lost a significant amount of weight several years back.  She warned me that mentally she is still messed up.  She said all she sees is fat still. 

I've spent my entire life seeing myself as fat.  But, I look at these pictures and I see all the flaws. 

I don't want to just see fat in me.  I want to move past this mindset.  But how?