I stumbled on videos from last year's Dancing with the Stars event. Wow, I can really see the difference in my size now. I look really heavy. REALLY heavy and I hate seeing it.
The interview video played before my performance kills me. I look blown up.
My actual dance video is also troubling but it doesn't bother me nearly as much. Probably because the dress is so spectacular and a big distraction.
I hate that these videos are online for everyone to see. I know its part of who I am/was. But, I have worked so hard these last 40+ weeks. I don't want people to see that anymore. That's not how I want to be remembered.
I find it so embarrassing. I'm actually blushing as I type this. So, how does one hack in to You Tube and destroy this damaging evidence?
I hate that these videos are online for everyone to see. I know its part of who I am/was. But, I have worked so hard these last 40+ weeks. I don't want people to see that anymore. That's not how I want to be remembered.
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