Stress Density

In November I wrote about stress density and my inability to lose weight and all the stress I was under at that time.

Here I am again.  Only in November, I was probably more rigid in my diet.  I was still really in the box - unlike now where I've been cheating more.  Cheating... meaning I eat outside the core curriculum (beyond box food and fruits and vegetables).  I've had more drinks lately.  A lot more and more often. 

But, this has been a very stressful time for me.  The last few months at work have been very challenging.  A lot of growth (which is great) along with quite a few dozen moments of frustration.  Along with that there have been several other things I'm juggling that are causing anxiety and stress.

Monday night's weigh in was my worst.  I knew it wasn't going to be pretty.  The scale (over the weekend) had been warning me... really, really warning me... that it was going to be bad.  It was less bad than the warning signs, but I was still up almost 3 pounds.  I'd been pretty proud of my track record.  My biggest gain to date was 1 pound, once.  Any other gain was like .4 or .2 or .5 once.  I basically call that maintaining. 

For the past few weeks I haven't seen a loss.  It's been up .2 or staying exactly the same or down a tiny bit.  But, up 3

I talked to Ginah about the stress I've been under.  And, that I've had more drinks lately.  And, yes... I believe I am responsible for this gain (to some degree) with bad choices.  I also know that I'm very stressed and I've felt especially dense.  My skin is tight.  My legs are tight.  My clothes are tight.  To make matters worse, my blood pressure is elevated. 

I've got to get myself back on track coz I really hate the way this "density" feels.